About

There are various labels I could apply to myself: Christian, twenty-something, wife, step-mother, step-grandmother, INFP, idealist, recently-diagnosed-as-mildly-mad (is there such a thing?), and so on…

The normal people I run into during the course of life don’t seem to get me. At times I am reserved, shy and quite deep. A person who sticks herself to a wall at parties and stares at the floor. At other times I am loud, jokey and fast. I am the life and soul of the parties. I had no idea that there was anything wrong with this until recently, when my moods started cycling extremely rapidly, complete with random outbursts of rudeness followed swiftly by uncontrollable tears and sobbing.  Hence the new mental label.

Over the years I have become quite adept at hiding myself in the real world. I have learned how to disguise myself so that people rarely see what goes on inside. People may see the shyness, or the rapid speech, but they don’t often see the reasons why. These days my mask is starting to wear a bit thin, and people are staring through the cracks. So I have decided to come clean. Come out of the mental closet. I have decided that I shall be open about my disorder, and in the process perhaps I can help to get rid of that nasty thing called stigma.

I will probably re-write this about a thousand times, because I am never happy with my About page. There is no easy way to sum myself up. So just read the blog and the different parts of my personality are bound to crop up sooner or later.